Weight of the World

Hey everyone out there in blog land, it's me again :)

So last weekend was Gold Coast Supanova, my least favourite con, but I still had a decent time :)
No I'm not being a drama queen, it's my least favourite because of the sheer stupidity of the venue. You have to show your wristband when you walk in the building, then again when you walk in the inner part (where the stalls and celebs are) and not only that, but there is one main entrance to the inner and one main exit. I remember a couple of years ago, I stepped one metre outside the exit to register for the cosplay comp and they tried to tell me I had to go back to the other end of the building to reenter when I tried. So basically I went over the head of the volunteers and spoke to security..she let me in :)

Then there's the parking and public transport situation. Sure it will be great when the Light Rail is operating from June...but that didn't help us this weekend. My friend and I had to drive around for half an hour to find a park because the venue parking was full and there is NOWHERE to park on the Gold Coast within walking distance on a weekend. I mean come on, it's a tourist area near the beach..the parks are GONE.

Anyway,
Met a few people that knew me from my Page which was such an ego boost for me ^.^ So exciting meeting a 'fan', especially for the first time.
Saw my friends from Sydney which was great, and hopefully I'll be able to see them again in June if I can make it to Sydney's Supanova.

So, I was feeling pretty confident in my Catwoman costume because it was comfy, black (so presumably slimming), and showed off my boobs quite nicely.

Then there was the disaster of my Wonder Woman costume. Hours and hours of work was put into that costume over more than a month, so much money was spent on Worbla to make the armour right, and for what...the frumpy mess it turned out to be. The day of the con, my shoe armour came apart so that had to be left at home, towards the end my chest piece broke so that signalled the end of my day early, and I ran out of Worbla to attempt to make the belt more detailed.
Basically it came out as something that wasn't worth the money I spent on it.

You see pictures of Worbla armour all over the world that looks SPECTACULAR, but no matter how hard I tried, or what methods I used...I just couldn't make it happen.

It wasn't until I saw these photos of Supanova that I realised...I seriously need to do something about my weight. (Please don't think I'm being bitchy) I see pictures of costumes that just look shocking and like they were made by a blind man...but when the girl in them is skinny and gorgeous, she still manages to work it.
My costumes, no matter the effort or skill involved, always seem to come out ill-fitting and frumpy these days.

I made an agreement with myself to not even think about convention costumes for November until I lose 5 kilos...but I don't even think that's enough. It's not even my daily life that gets me down. Normally I don't really care how I look and I can always find something to wear that hides it all. But not costumes, not the one thing in my life that I enjoy doing. This seems to be the only place where I notice the size I have become and I hate it.
I wish I could just get a gym membership so I can get out of the house and just work out without a watch to know how long I've been going. But I can't. This unemployment situation is killing me and I just want my life back. I HATE staying at home every day because every cent I have goes towards bills. I just want to work and get my income back so I can change my life...but that shot to my self-esteem is stopping me from changing myself.

Well I'm sure there's more I could say here but it's now 1am and I should probably get some sleep so I can wake up fresh to do nothing tomorrow.
Sigh, I just wish I could get out of this rut and post about happy things and cosplay progress...but it doesn't seem to be happening at the moment.

Ah well, here's some more pics from the weekend to sign off with.

Keep on sewing,
Bloom xoxo