To begin with, I loved having the time off to do things with my life...but now that my money has dried up, I just want a job...not only for the income but also to resolve boredom.
Everyone around me who was unemployed seems to be getting jobs, but I can't even seem to get an interview...or even more that one rejection letter from the, at least, 30 jobs I've applied for.
*sigh*
Well on the semi-plus side, Supanova is coming up this weekend.
I spose that's a plus for some...for me it involves spending money I don't have, frantically finishing costumes that I've looked at so much that I hate them, and standing around awkwardly as I see fellow cosplayers that I know, but don't really want to go up to them because I think they won't remember or recognise me.
I've made a punishment for myself though, my next main convention to plan for is Brisbane Supanova in November and I've told myself I am not allowed to start or even plan my cosplays for this convention until I lose at least 5 kilos. Recently I've started to see how my costumes look good on my mannequin but awful on me, this is because of my weight gain over the past couple of years.
I've been looking back on my past cosplays, such as Babydoll, and I hate the way I look now. My biggest issue is I'm too lazy to do anything about it. Starting next week after this con is over, I will attempt to change my life. Obviously I can't afford a gym membership so I'm gunna do my best to keep motivated with the Wii and XBox Kinect.
The hardest part to keep dedicated to at the moment is my food intake. My main problem at the moment is the fact that my mum and I made soooooo much food for my birthday party...that was barely touched because half the people that said they were coming, didn't :(
Then that brings me to my next point, the fact that I hate having birthday parties. I've never exactly been popular, ever in my life, but at least my closest friends bothered to come. I was told a couple of months ago that I had to do something for my birthday because "you only turn 22 once", even though I've never had a good experience with heaps of people wanting to celebrate my birthday with me (bare in mind a few of my friends live in another state and my closest friends always show up) but it's the fact that you invite so many people each time in hopes that you'll finally have that big party that you've always wanted...but in the end, you end up being disappointed with the attendance and the amount of money you wasted on food and supplies that weren't needed (which also isn't what you want to be doing when you don't have an income)
This, is the cake my partner decorated for me.
The bottom tier is a chocolate cake with chocolate icing, topped with malteasers and surrounded with milk choc kit kats.
This cake alone cost roughly $70 to put together, and the amount of people that came was enough to eat only the top tier...leaving the whole bottom for my partner and I to eat ourselves.
Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful to the people that came along to help me celebrate and I'm not having a go at the people that didn't...this is just a post about how I wish my life was different sometimes.
Then there's my cosplay friends. I honestly can't remember what happened there. I have a select few, mainly in Sydney, that I love to cosplay alongside and hang out with at conventions...but I used to have so many more friends in the cosplay community. I've tried making new friends but it doesn't seem to be working out :(
I see newcomers to cosplay making friends with everyone and interacting heavily on fb...but I just can't seem to get that.
Also, didn't help that I didn't have broadband for over a year so it made me extremely anti-social considering there isn't many conventions for my to go to and hang out with these people from other states.
Think that's enough whinging for today...will make another post next week with pics from Supanova :) will be taking my camera in my Catwoman backpack and taking piccies this year!
Keep on sewing,
Bloom xoxo
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