Sunday, 27 September 2015

Losing it for the sake of Cosplay

I realise this is my cosplay blog, however as this is indirectly about my cosplay career and blogs are a place for self-expression, I will be sharing my weight-loss journey with the internet.

For a long time now I have not been happy with what I see in the mirror. My biggest problem is that instead of the stereotypical "I look better than I feel", I have always been "I feel better than I look". Instead of always being aware of how big I've gotten, I can easily strike a pose and see myself differently in my head. I feel that this has been one of the biggest things stopping me from sticking to a weight-loss routine.

I look at photos of myself in my first costume in 2011, and when comparing to now, I see my biggest letdown is my legs. The corset is the most used object in my closet when it comes to costumes and it vastly helps improve my confidence, alas there is no way to trick my legs into looking thinner. Time and time again I have tried various ways to lose weight. Shakes, bike riding, Wii, running on the treadmill, and even simply eating better. However I have one of the worst curses in my life...a short attention span.
Shakes and healthy eating are always ruined by cravings which turn into my old routine, treadmill and Wii are always ruined by getting bored really quickly, and I simply don't have the funds for a gym membership.

My most recent convention, Oz Comic-Con, was my eye opener. After receiving amazing photos from various photographers that I worked with, I saw it. The costume that looked so amazing on my mannequin, looked awful on me. I had ruined my own creation.
As a photograph, every image looked fantasic! But I have let myself down. In my mind my costume looked incredible, just as it had at home, but my weight (especially legs) took away from all the hard work I had put into it.
This was my wakeup call.

This morning I was eating breakfast with the TV on in the background and an infomercial came on for the T25 workout system. Basically it is a 14 week program that calls on 25 minutes straight of interval training, five days a week. I watched intently as it went through all the details and success stories and I was hooked. This was perfect for me! Short amounts of time so I wouldn't get bored, fast results, and no breaks in the session so I'm not tempted to walk away.

As the program starts on a Monday, I thought I'd try out the 'stretch' session, which you do on your days off, just to get myself kickstarted and man was it good. After just 25 minutes I was feeling great and when it got to the 20min mark, it felt like time had flown by. Obviously this session is nothing like the others, but to get a look-in has helped me get keen about the whole idea.

It feels a bit silly writing about my weight-loss journey on the internet where people judge you soon as look at you, but this is my way of keeping on track. Knowing that there might be people reading this out there and knowing what I'm doing, is my way of sticking with it. So many times I have been on a secret diet and just stopped because I'd had enough. That won't happen this time!

This program has come into my life at the perfect time as it is 14 weeks long and there are 14 weeks left in the year. So hopefully by next year, I will be at a size that I am happy with and be well on my way to a happier life :)

Wish me luck!
xoxoxo

Monday, 4 May 2015

Is it me?

Now this may come as quite a controversial article, but I’m always wondering if there are people out there who feel the same and have the same problems. It can’t just be me right?
The cosplay community has millions of people all over the world, I cant be the only one.

I started this hobby in 2011 and haven’t really stopped since. I go to at least two conventions a year, have a decently sized online following and I’m even facebook friends with quite a lot of Australian Cosplayers.
If this is supposed to be such a loving community, why is it that I feel so alone?

As a person I will admit, I am quite socially awkward and don’t do so well in large groups, but I know others like that who have been accepted quite easily. Every time I attend a convention I see new cosplayers take the spotlight and that’s so amazing for them…but does that mean that my time is over?
My first real cosplay experience was a Sucker Punch group in 2011 and it was such an amazing day…but then I feel like I peaked too early. Was that my most notable costume and now anything after that just blends into the crowd?

Its also the people, I see posts all the time of people saying how amazing the cosplay community is and how they’ve made life long friendships, but I just don’t feel that way. Yes I have made some close friends that are amazing (most live in another state which is unfortunate) but I just never feel welcomed in the con circuit. Like I’m invisible.
Taking a recent example, a good friend of mine has become quite popular in the local scene, and why wouldn’t she. Shes such a charismatic person and she rocks every costume she wears, but then there’s me. We cosplayed together and I was hoping by being at her side, it would help me to be introduced to new people and get my social life back…but it didn’t. One particular instance was when I was introduced to a cosplayer, whom I already knew online, and they just said hi and went back to speaking to people on the other side of the group. But then there’s the other side where I passed by a lovely girl I’ve only met once also not really spoken to, and she greeted me with a smile and a “how have you been? You look awesome”.
Is it me? Am I the aspect that’s causing my own grief? Do people simply not like me and ignore me at cons because they don’t want to talk to me? Or is the fact that I’m simply not charismatic enough to hold a conversation or draw attention?

There are so many factors to consider that I don’t know what the ultimate answer is. It’s not like this is the environment where people will openly say they don’t want to be friends with you…but I wish they would. Then I could know why I feel this way all the time.


This post is in no way a dig at anyone in particular or just a whinge session, but if people don’t know how you feel, it makes social situations that little bit harder to encounter. Like if you are really quiet around people, are you always like that or has something happened in your life that no one knows about, causing you to act that way?

Tuesday, 17 March 2015

Parallax finally took down Hal Jordan

So in the media over the past few days, you have all become aware of the incident that occurred upon the Green Lantern Ride at Movie World.
If you haven't heard, several people were trapped on the ride after a wheel dislodged from one of the cars.

Movie World as a park has always wanted their rides to be a"world first".

Justice League, which you may recognise from the Buzz Lightyear ride at Disney, was bought as an "improvement" with new ride software and scoring systems...which has caused nothing but trouble for the staff running it with constant evacuations and downtime. The ride was promised to be able to cope with up to 20 vehicles at a time, yet more than 12 cause it to fault.

Superman Escape was the first launch coaster by it's creator to feature a "dark ride" before the main coaster, which is where a majority of the ride faults happen. Another feature is the launch area. Normally this area is a flat piece of track but on Superman it travels upwards on a gradient...again causing faults and several evacuations a week, sometimes even several a day.

Scooby-Doo, made custom for Movie World by the creator, features a vertical lift and turntable system not used before. As a ride, this is the most safety-driven position a staff member can be put in. Days of safety and evacuation training prepare the staff for at least one evacuation a day in peak periods. Mainly, these faults occur because of the lift (for those who have been on the ride before, you know the lift I'm referring to). Some days, at least three evacuations can be completed. Several times before the cars have actually crashed into each other.

Wild West Falls is one of the oldest rides at Movie World, and in my opinion, needs to be retired. With the extreme lack of attendance on a normal day, there aren't usually any problems with the ride, however the most common problem is boats getting stuck. If you have been on the ride, you'll know of the section where you reverse down a hill then turn around on the other side. This reversing element is its own "world first", yet another that causes problems. Although it is quite entertaining to watch the maintenance crew kick the boat out of the wedge to fix the problem when it happens. Also to the idiots who think it's cool to rock the boats, it's not. If that boat capsizes (which it can) you will actually die. Either by drowning or getting caught in the machinery from the water being drained. So don't do it.

Now we come to the Green Lantern Coaster. A ride originally created to have four seats, not eight, therefore putting immense strain on the undercarriage which had not been updated for the extra weight. For the four years of it's operation, this ride has been know as the Green Lemon. Consistently receiving faults, being closed down for hours, even days, and this isn't the first time it's been on the news.
Turn your minds back to January 2013 when the ride broke down twice in one day from electrical faults. Around midday, a full cart of 8 people were stuck on the ride for more than an hour, having to be kept cool by water and umbrellas provided by staff. After they were eventually freed, the ride continued operating until a second fault occurred less than an hour later, trapping 8 more people.
And now just over a year later, this incident occurs.


As shown in these photographs, the car is definitely off the track. Recent photos reveal that two sets of wheels detached from the car and these photos show just how severe the accident was. A fireman that was involved in the rescue of these guests stated that they were lucky to be alive. It was stated that the only thing holding the back half of the cart to the front, was two bolts. If these had been severed, people could have lost their lives.
I do hope that for the first time, Movie World takes this event 100% seriously and genuinely attempts to investigate the accident instead of just reopening after a few days.

Sunday, 4 January 2015

2015, the year of new beginnings

Happy New Year everyone!!

Now to start, I know everyone makes New Year's Resolutions and never follows through, but I've never made them before so this time will be a bit different.
My partner and I sat down and wrote out all of our goals for this year which of course involve the usual suspects like weight loss, get out of debt, etc. But it's so much more than that.

For a while now I haven't been very happy with my appearance, so I have set up a regime (which I trialled last year with success) to help me lose the weight. I will be setting each con as markers in the year and pushing myself to lose a certain amount of eight by these events. I won't go into specifics because this type of goal shouldn't be broadcasted all over the internet, it's something I'm doing to be more happy with myself.

Then of course there's the cosplay goals. This year I really want to step it up!
I want to start selling prints, doing a lot more charity work, collaborate with more cosplayers, work with heaps of photographers, take my costumes to the next level, and basically work and work on my costumes until I'm 100% happy with them. That means no more last minute costuming, I've set myself a goal to have everything finished at least a week in advance.

I'll be keeping my page and this blog much more updated (at least one post a fortnight) and keeping communication open between my "fans" and I.

If you see something in my cosplay portfolio that you like and you want some help to recreate it, just ask :) I'm more than happy to offer advice on pieces that i've made.

This year means big things for me in cosplay as well. I have been drawing and redrawing my design for Spyro the Dragon since I began cosplaying and I will finally be making it a reality. I've also got a few pair/group cosplays planned but always looking to get involved with more people :)

Back to the point about doing more charity work, I'm super-duper keen to do this after making $770 for the Look Good Feel Better Charity from our Bombshell Calendars :D Feels good giving back and doing something meaningful with my cosplay and I wanna continue that.

I really want to meet more people and make new friends this year so don't be afraid to chat to me, because being such an introvert, it's more than likely i want to talk to you, but I'm too shy :P


Hope to see you all at upcoming cons and hope you like what I produce this year :)

Keep on sewing
Bloom xoxo

Monday, 8 December 2014

Remembering a Legend

In life, everyone has their own ways of grieving. I've decided that this is mine.
All day I have been taking notes about the things I want to say about Justin, and now I'm going to try and patch them all together. I have been writing and rewriting this post ever since I learned of Justin's passing, so I'm hoping it ties together okay.



Brisbane Supanova #2, 2011
The first time I met Justin, I was brand new to the cosplay community so I didn't know him...I didn't know anyone. I saw he had a wicked Superman costume on and immediately asked him for a photo. We got to chatting for a while until we parted ways. It wasn't until a while after that, that I started fangirling over his costumes and sent him a friend request, of course feeling like a stalker.




Sydney Supanova, 2012

2012 was when I really started to get into cosplay and basically chatted to ANYONE who made costumes because I'd never been part of a community like this before. I attended Sydney Supanova for the first time and gave Justin the biggest hug when I saw him. I had found interest in a guy I was introduced to so I spent a majority of the weekend with him, but always had long chats when I ran into Justin.

Heroes and Villains, Sydney 2012




Brisbane Supanova, 2012
Brisbane Supanova that year was the best. Justin and Rob got a hotel room in the same place as me and we pretty much hung out together the whole weekend. We got KFC pretty much every night and pigged out together. The whole day I was Supergirl, those guys would encourage me to get into photos with them and be basically just screwed around all day. The best way to spend Supanova.




And of course, after a long day of getting your photo taken, nothing is better than taking off your headgear/wig and getting a selfie.

Brisbane Supanova, 2013
This Brisbane Nova was AWESOME. Months beforehand, Justin messaged me saying he was getting a DC group together and asked if I wanted to get involved. I couldn't refuse!
That day I met so many new friends through this group including Dan and Rae who of course, like every else live in Sydney and had so much fun with them all. We went on stage for the cosplay comp so everyone could see our awesomeness and I loved strutting my stuff up there.

Next up, was Sydney Supanova 2014. This weekend, was quite possibly one of the best weekends of my life. Justin and his family opened up their home to me because I had nowhere to stay for the weekend and I am forever grateful to them for that. Although I didn't hang with those guys on the Saturday, on the Sunday it was the day of our X-Men group.

Sydney Supanova, 2014
I once again got to see the people I only see at conventions, and spend the day making new friends and networking with other cosplayers/photographers. Sydney has always been the peak of Australian Conventions and I will never forget that weekend...neither will my feet from the blisters I received from my X-Men Elsa on the Friday night.
Of course, the convention weekend would not be complete without a trip to KFC...which we pigged out at and Eleni ate a sandwich ;P

I remember the last words Justin and I spoke. After Supanova was over, he dropped me off at the train station so I could head to the airport and as he was about the leave, I'm so thankful that I stopped him for a huge hug to say thank you. Our last words were "see you at Brisnova". Well Justin, we may not be seeing each other there anymore, but I know you will be watching over us all, telling all the other guys up there how awesome we look and how much you wish you could be there with us.


And that is all the convention experiences I was lucky enough to spend with Justin. Ever since the tears stopped flowing, all I can do is remember all the times I had with Justin.
I remember the night he called me at midnight to chat (even though it was 1am in NSW) and he told me how excited he was for his Mad Max photoshoot that had just been organised. The passion he showed in his cosplay and normal life was beyond amazing.

Every time I saw his smiling face, it was like no time had passed. To me, that is what a real friend is, a person that you can go months without seeing, but feeling like it was just yesterday. Every time I think of him, I remember another awesome memory that I shared with him and wish I could relive them over and over.

Unlike a lot of people I know, I have never experienced a loss such as this. Aside from family pets, I have never lost a family member or friend before so I have given up forcing the tears back, and just letting them flow. I found out the sad news five minutes before starting my shift at work and it was the hardest day of my life. Every time I would let my mind wander from work duties, I would think of Justin and the tears would begin to fall down my face. I didn't want to believe it and I wanted the day to be a horrible nightmare.

To your family, this is the time where you need to be strong for each other and remember, your dad and husband is a hero to hundreds, and he touched every single life he entered. To Ryan, Alicia and Annalise, be brave for your mum and take good care of her. She has lost the love of her life and I can't even begin to imagine what that must be like. I was one of Justin's friends who was lucky enough to meet you all when I came to Sydney and you all opened your home for me. Thankyou for that.

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Last week I attended Justin's funeral and it was a beautiful service. I have never attended one before but I could tell by the fact that we overflowed the hall and spilled onto the street, this is a man who is loved by hundreds. Afterwards, we all headed to their local tavern for food and drinks, and a friend had even made up Bat symbol stickers with Justin's name on them for everyone. I am so happy that I made every effort to fly to Sydney for this day, because I know if I didn't, I definitely would have regretted it after everything he's done for me.

Part of me is hoping that none of this is real and I'll turn up to the next convention, greeted with a hug from him. But of course I know that won't be the case.
Although one thing I'm sure of, is Justin is up there right now giving them heck and watching over his family, and friends.
Every time I complete a costume, I know he'll be watching me, and this has helped me make the decision to put everything I have into my costumes now, because that's what he did.

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I realise it has taken me a super long time to post this, and no doubt I will think of more things I want to say, but for now...Goodbye Justin. Love you, and our friendship will always remain in my heart.
You will forever remain in our hearts, minds, and cosplays.
I'll see you again one day.



Thursday, 20 November 2014

Brisbane Bombshells Calendar

So those followers of my page will already know that a group of Australian cosplayers and myself are making a calendar this year to raise money for the charity 'Look Good Feel Better'.
We will be featuring our DC Bombshell costume in the calendar and all profits will go towards the charity.

To get some hype going, I thought I'd do up a post with some WIP and completed costume pics from some of the girls involved in the calendar :D











Stargirl's Cosmic Staff Tutorial: Part 2

Here it is!
The long awaited part two of Stargirl's cosmic staff is here!!
I know right, took me long enough but I literally just finished the staff last night because of work and uni getting in the way.

So here we go..

Last time we left off at the main part of the staff being all put together. Now it's time for the topper.


So after researching a ton of ways to make this part, I ended up deciding on using one of these foam cones from my local craft store (here in Aus it's Spotlight).

They can cost anywhere from $10-$15 but I got mine for free because the cashier didn't put the sale through properly and didn't charge us.

So basically you just make angled cuts and attach each piece as you go until you get this shape.
Underneath the primer and paper mache, you can see the joins that I cut to make the shape of the topper. I only used about half of the cone because it was quite large, so I cut off an extra section and added to the bottom to make the smaller base it sits on.

After I glued all the pieces together, I just used paper mache over the top, put primer on, painted then voila :D
All the attaching I did was with hot glue so it didn't ruin the styrofoam. Just a warning for those who have never done it before, NEVER use spray paint or any aerosol directly onto styrofoam. I did once and it actually ate away at the foam.
But hey, if you're going for battle-damaged, that could work for you!


After attaching the topper and painting the whole staff, here is the finished product!
So happy with how it came out!
You can basically make it any height you want, but for the purposes of conventions, I made it roughly 2m tall and detachable for when someone has a go at me, I can just pull it apart at the 1m line like so.
And that's it! All finished finally.

I am always more than happy to offer advice to other cosplayers on how to make anything I have before so if you have any questions, don't hesitate to message me at my page
www.facebook.com/bloomcosplay1


Until then, keep on sewing
Bloom xoxo