I realise this is my cosplay blog, however as this is indirectly about my cosplay career and blogs are a place for self-expression, I will be sharing my weight-loss journey with the internet.
For a long time now I have not been happy with what I see in the mirror. My biggest problem is that instead of the stereotypical "I look better than I feel", I have always been "I feel better than I look". Instead of always being aware of how big I've gotten, I can easily strike a pose and see myself differently in my head. I feel that this has been one of the biggest things stopping me from sticking to a weight-loss routine.
I look at photos of myself in my first costume in 2011, and when comparing to now, I see my biggest letdown is my legs. The corset is the most used object in my closet when it comes to costumes and it vastly helps improve my confidence, alas there is no way to trick my legs into looking thinner. Time and time again I have tried various ways to lose weight. Shakes, bike riding, Wii, running on the treadmill, and even simply eating better. However I have one of the worst curses in my life...a short attention span.
Shakes and healthy eating are always ruined by cravings which turn into my old routine, treadmill and Wii are always ruined by getting bored really quickly, and I simply don't have the funds for a gym membership.
My most recent convention, Oz Comic-Con, was my eye opener. After receiving amazing photos from various photographers that I worked with, I saw it. The costume that looked so amazing on my mannequin, looked awful on me. I had ruined my own creation.
As a photograph, every image looked fantasic! But I have let myself down. In my mind my costume looked incredible, just as it had at home, but my weight (especially legs) took away from all the hard work I had put into it.
This was my wakeup call.
This morning I was eating breakfast with the TV on in the background and an infomercial came on for the T25 workout system. Basically it is a 14 week program that calls on 25 minutes straight of interval training, five days a week. I watched intently as it went through all the details and success stories and I was hooked. This was perfect for me! Short amounts of time so I wouldn't get bored, fast results, and no breaks in the session so I'm not tempted to walk away.
As the program starts on a Monday, I thought I'd try out the 'stretch' session, which you do on your days off, just to get myself kickstarted and man was it good. After just 25 minutes I was feeling great and when it got to the 20min mark, it felt like time had flown by. Obviously this session is nothing like the others, but to get a look-in has helped me get keen about the whole idea.
It feels a bit silly writing about my weight-loss journey on the internet where people judge you soon as look at you, but this is my way of keeping on track. Knowing that there might be people reading this out there and knowing what I'm doing, is my way of sticking with it. So many times I have been on a secret diet and just stopped because I'd had enough. That won't happen this time!
This program has come into my life at the perfect time as it is 14 weeks long and there are 14 weeks left in the year. So hopefully by next year, I will be at a size that I am happy with and be well on my way to a happier life :)
Wish me luck!
xoxoxo
